1 00:00:08,510 --> 00:00:11,345 - Dance. - Dance, come on. 2 00:00:13,515 --> 00:00:15,215 Lindsey! 3 00:00:16,216 --> 00:00:17,585 Lindsey! 4 00:00:19,587 --> 00:00:22,657 Lindsey. 5 00:00:22,690 --> 00:00:25,693 Lindsey! Lindsey! Lindsey! 6 00:00:29,296 --> 00:00:31,164 Looking back over my life, 7 00:00:31,198 --> 00:00:34,201 I can't believe everything that has happened to me. 8 00:00:37,170 --> 00:00:39,206 I'm a very different person than I was, 9 00:00:39,239 --> 00:00:41,341 and it's not because I woke up one morning 10 00:00:41,375 --> 00:00:43,377 and it changed. 11 00:00:46,648 --> 00:00:48,816 I know what it feels like to be afraid. 12 00:00:48,850 --> 00:00:51,218 I know what it feels like to not believe in myself. 13 00:00:51,251 --> 00:00:52,696 I know what it feels like to look in the mirror 14 00:00:52,720 --> 00:00:56,123 and hate everything you see. 15 00:00:56,156 --> 00:01:00,394 I've fallen multiple times as I've been on this journey. 16 00:01:00,427 --> 00:01:03,163 Moments like this, I just try to stop feeling 17 00:01:03,196 --> 00:01:05,567 because I'm too scared. 18 00:01:05,600 --> 00:01:09,169 All my trials really helped me prepare myself 19 00:01:09,202 --> 00:01:11,706 to become more brave. 20 00:01:11,739 --> 00:01:15,375 Every time you get up a little bit stronger. 21 00:01:15,409 --> 00:01:21,181 This is who I am right now. 22 00:01:23,250 --> 00:01:26,219 - Girl: We love you! - Yeah! 23 00:01:42,336 --> 00:01:46,641 ♪ Don't let this feeling 24 00:01:46,674 --> 00:01:49,443 ♪ Don't let this feeling fade ♪ 25 00:01:49,476 --> 00:01:51,178 ♪ Turn it up let me hear you live ♪ 26 00:01:51,211 --> 00:01:54,749 ♪ Don't let this feeling 27 00:01:54,782 --> 00:01:57,652 ♪ Don't let this feeling fade ♪ 28 00:01:57,685 --> 00:01:59,319 ♪ One life, one love 29 00:01:59,353 --> 00:02:02,890 ♪ Don't let this feeling 30 00:02:02,924 --> 00:02:05,760 ♪ Don't let this feeling fade ♪ 31 00:02:05,793 --> 00:02:07,461 ♪ Turn it up let me hear you live ♪ 32 00:02:07,494 --> 00:02:11,331 ♪ Don't let this feeling 33 00:02:11,365 --> 00:02:14,334 ♪ Don't let this feeling fade ♪ 34 00:02:14,368 --> 00:02:15,870 ♪ One life, one love. 35 00:02:20,240 --> 00:02:24,344 You got a slow clap. 36 00:02:24,378 --> 00:02:26,948 Erich, put your hands in the air. 37 00:02:26,981 --> 00:02:29,717 - Look excited. - Whoo. 38 00:02:29,751 --> 00:02:32,654 Yeah, thank you, Chad. Yeah. 39 00:02:32,687 --> 00:02:34,656 Whoo. 40 00:02:47,769 --> 00:02:49,302 ♪ Some 41 00:02:49,336 --> 00:02:51,839 ♪ Somebody shine a light 42 00:02:51,873 --> 00:02:53,407 Okay. 43 00:02:55,375 --> 00:02:56,644 Okay. 44 00:02:56,678 --> 00:03:00,447 ♪ Somebody make me feel alive ♪ 45 00:03:00,480 --> 00:03:03,985 ♪ And shatter me 46 00:03:04,018 --> 00:03:07,555 Can you put some reverb and a tiny bit of delay on it? 47 00:03:07,588 --> 00:03:09,489 ♪ Make 48 00:03:09,524 --> 00:03:11,759 Just cover it up a little bit, you know? 49 00:03:11,793 --> 00:03:13,594 I'm not a singer. 50 00:03:13,628 --> 00:03:16,864 The very first day of the tour will be on my 30th birthday. 51 00:03:20,300 --> 00:03:22,302 Whoo. 52 00:03:22,335 --> 00:03:23,805 Turning 30 does make you evaluate 53 00:03:23,838 --> 00:03:26,273 where you've been in your life. 54 00:03:26,306 --> 00:03:29,877 My career has taken me in so many unexpected directions. 55 00:03:29,911 --> 00:03:33,548 Like, how can, you know, this crazy dancing violin thing 56 00:03:33,581 --> 00:03:36,584 that no one's gonna like, how does that happen? 57 00:03:36,617 --> 00:03:39,554 Yay. 58 00:03:39,587 --> 00:03:42,289 The thought of turning 30 has mostly made me think 59 00:03:42,322 --> 00:03:43,858 about who I want to be in the future. 60 00:03:52,734 --> 00:03:55,268 Lindsey is the most hands-on artist you'll ever see. 61 00:03:56,838 --> 00:03:59,406 - From the live show... - Walk it back. 62 00:03:59,439 --> 00:04:01,542 - The choreography... - Bum, bum, turn. 63 00:04:01,576 --> 00:04:03,611 - The videos... - Might just cheat it a little bit. 64 00:04:03,644 --> 00:04:05,378 I was a little behind. 65 00:04:05,412 --> 00:04:06,981 Du, du, du, ba, da, da, one. 66 00:04:07,014 --> 00:04:09,449 - Lindsey does do it all. - Are you ready to go? 67 00:04:09,483 --> 00:04:10,885 Let's do it. 68 00:04:13,788 --> 00:04:16,624 Ha ha! Yeah, I think this is good if, 69 00:04:16,656 --> 00:04:18,334 during their thing if it just kind of sleeky... 70 00:04:18,358 --> 00:04:20,427 - If it's dark, yeah. - Sleekly come out. 71 00:04:20,459 --> 00:04:22,506 Yeah, they can definitely get up there and do their thing. 72 00:04:22,530 --> 00:04:24,866 There's so much going on in this new tour. 73 00:04:24,899 --> 00:04:29,436 White is not matching at all. 74 00:04:29,469 --> 00:04:30,914 She's the creative everything behind it, too. 75 00:04:30,938 --> 00:04:32,740 So there's just stress there to begin with. 76 00:04:32,774 --> 00:04:36,043 Ahh! I'm gonna... 77 00:04:36,077 --> 00:04:38,579 White doesn't glow every well under blacklight. 78 00:04:38,613 --> 00:04:40,782 It has to have some pigment to it. 79 00:04:49,924 --> 00:04:51,726 It's good enough. Look, I fixed my costume. 80 00:04:51,759 --> 00:04:54,962 - Yeah. Is that gaffe tape? - Did you see it before? 81 00:04:54,996 --> 00:04:57,765 How'd you do that? Is it really? 82 00:04:57,799 --> 00:05:00,701 Just stand back, Bertie, please. It'll look great. 83 00:05:05,940 --> 00:05:09,710 The whole concept of this Brave Enough tour 84 00:05:09,744 --> 00:05:12,412 is about the courage to feel, to feel everything. 85 00:05:15,850 --> 00:05:17,819 You know, I wrote the album very much inspired 86 00:05:17,852 --> 00:05:20,788 by the passing of, you know, my best friend 87 00:05:20,822 --> 00:05:25,126 and that extreme loss and learning to reopen again. 88 00:05:27,829 --> 00:05:30,397 You know, we can't block ourselves from emotions. 89 00:05:30,430 --> 00:05:32,900 If you numb the bad, then you'll numb the good. 90 00:05:32,934 --> 00:05:35,770 Who's here for me? Oh, Drew's here for me. 91 00:05:35,803 --> 00:05:38,840 We've all had moments where we've worried about her, 92 00:05:38,873 --> 00:05:41,108 especially on this tour with the stress 93 00:05:41,142 --> 00:05:44,444 and this heartache and this loss. 94 00:05:44,477 --> 00:05:46,479 But she's still, like, that spritely, like, 95 00:05:46,514 --> 00:05:47,891 "Hey, guys, what's going on? How you doing?" 96 00:05:47,915 --> 00:05:50,051 Look at the back. I just made it so pretty. 97 00:05:50,084 --> 00:05:52,720 Look at you. You should, you know, be a costumer. 98 00:05:52,753 --> 00:05:56,057 You know what? In my next life, that's what I'm gonna do. 99 00:06:03,831 --> 00:06:06,701 Today is the first show. 100 00:06:06,734 --> 00:06:09,503 My mom talked to me yesterday, 101 00:06:09,537 --> 00:06:11,973 and she was devastated that she couldn't be here today. 102 00:06:12,006 --> 00:06:15,176 She's been at almost every first show. 103 00:06:15,209 --> 00:06:18,411 They can't leave Arizona because of my dad's health. 104 00:06:18,445 --> 00:06:20,181 All right, let's do this. 105 00:06:26,954 --> 00:06:29,156 Life got a lot harder this year. 106 00:06:29,190 --> 00:06:32,827 And I am so nervous to go up there 107 00:06:32,860 --> 00:06:37,899 and play these songs that stir up grief. 108 00:06:37,932 --> 00:06:40,067 I hope I can get through them. 109 00:06:54,849 --> 00:06:57,952 The show starts with a song called "The Phoenix," 110 00:06:57,985 --> 00:07:00,154 using the phoenix, the mythical bird, 111 00:07:00,187 --> 00:07:02,924 as a symbol of rising from the ashes, 112 00:07:02,957 --> 00:07:05,693 going through cycles of being at the top 113 00:07:05,726 --> 00:07:07,929 and then falling down. 114 00:07:07,962 --> 00:07:10,164 Life is about picking yourself up over and over again. 115 00:07:10,197 --> 00:07:14,201 And that basically is the story of my entire life. 116 00:09:50,858 --> 00:09:53,127 I'm Diane Stirling, and I'm Lindsey Stirling's mother. 117 00:09:53,160 --> 00:09:55,262 I've been at her first show 118 00:09:55,296 --> 00:09:56,997 in the last two tours, 119 00:09:57,031 --> 00:09:59,633 and I really wanted to be here for this one. 120 00:10:01,302 --> 00:10:04,638 I was so surprised, and, um, made me start to cry. 121 00:10:04,672 --> 00:10:06,841 My mom means so much to me, 122 00:10:06,874 --> 00:10:08,676 and she's always taking care of me. 123 00:10:08,709 --> 00:10:10,311 Oh, this is one of your green juices. 124 00:10:10,344 --> 00:10:13,380 Thanks, yeah. That Mom makes. 125 00:10:13,414 --> 00:10:14,791 This is what you made Dad drink all the time. 126 00:10:14,815 --> 00:10:16,650 It is, yeah. 127 00:10:16,684 --> 00:10:18,886 I want her to know that even though there's tough things 128 00:10:18,919 --> 00:10:20,855 going on in our lives and our family 129 00:10:20,888 --> 00:10:23,390 that, um, she still matters. 130 00:10:23,424 --> 00:10:26,026 Oh, I'm so glad you were surprised. 131 00:10:26,060 --> 00:10:29,296 These milestones are important to her entire family, 132 00:10:29,330 --> 00:10:32,032 and her father would be here if he could. 133 00:10:33,267 --> 00:10:35,236 He can't. 134 00:10:35,269 --> 00:10:37,371 Diane: But her father has cancer 135 00:10:37,404 --> 00:10:40,774 and is going through the battle of his life. 136 00:10:40,808 --> 00:10:43,944 Oh, look at that smile. That's the smile I love. 137 00:10:45,012 --> 00:10:46,680 A little less than a year ago, 138 00:10:46,714 --> 00:10:48,883 my dad was diagnosed with cancer. 139 00:10:48,916 --> 00:10:51,285 He's been going through chemo treatment. 140 00:10:51,318 --> 00:10:53,954 My dad has played a huge role 141 00:10:53,988 --> 00:10:56,891 in little bits and pieces of all the details 142 00:10:56,924 --> 00:10:58,459 that make up who I am. 143 00:10:58,492 --> 00:11:00,961 His signature is in everything I do. 144 00:11:00,995 --> 00:11:01,996 How you doing, Papa? 145 00:11:02,029 --> 00:11:03,697 Pop's fine. 146 00:11:03,731 --> 00:11:05,208 You know, he wouldn't just say, "You can do this" 147 00:11:05,232 --> 00:11:06,400 and then send me on my way. 148 00:11:06,433 --> 00:11:08,068 He'd say, "You can do this, 149 00:11:08,102 --> 00:11:10,004 and I'm gonna do everything I can to help you." 150 00:11:10,037 --> 00:11:12,473 Father: Keep at it, Linds. Come on. You can do this. 151 00:11:12,507 --> 00:11:14,441 Thing is, he didn't just do this with me. 152 00:11:14,475 --> 00:11:16,443 He did this with his students. 153 00:11:16,477 --> 00:11:21,215 He taught religious studies to teenagers. 154 00:11:21,248 --> 00:11:23,017 He had thousands of students 155 00:11:23,050 --> 00:11:24,752 that he taught through the years. 156 00:11:24,785 --> 00:11:27,454 Everybody else got chocolate, I got pumpkin seeds. 157 00:11:27,488 --> 00:11:29,390 They're incredibly nutritious. 158 00:11:29,423 --> 00:11:33,227 And delicious. Right, Dad? 159 00:11:33,260 --> 00:11:36,263 Mm. I'll say so. Nutritious. 160 00:11:36,297 --> 00:11:38,098 My parents, they're just... 161 00:11:38,132 --> 00:11:40,801 I wouldn't be here today where I'm at 162 00:11:40,834 --> 00:11:42,112 if they hadn't just helped me along 163 00:11:42,136 --> 00:11:43,938 every step of the way. 164 00:11:43,971 --> 00:11:48,175 - One more surprise... - ♪ Happy birthday to you... 165 00:11:48,209 --> 00:11:51,278 Mostly, I'm proud of the person that she is, 166 00:11:51,312 --> 00:11:53,347 how she has stuck to her values 167 00:11:53,380 --> 00:11:55,416 and stayed true to who she is. 168 00:11:55,449 --> 00:11:57,351 Thank you, guys. 169 00:11:57,384 --> 00:11:59,386 She's just a bundle of light. 170 00:11:59,420 --> 00:12:01,121 Ever since she was a little tiny thing, 171 00:12:01,155 --> 00:12:03,457 just a bundle of light. 172 00:12:03,490 --> 00:12:06,427 I was six years old when I first picked up 173 00:12:06,460 --> 00:12:10,164 my first violin. 174 00:12:10,197 --> 00:12:13,167 My parents, they loved classical music. 175 00:12:19,039 --> 00:12:21,308 That was the majority of what I was exposed to 176 00:12:21,342 --> 00:12:23,210 in terms of music as a kid. 177 00:12:23,244 --> 00:12:26,080 That's kind of what I thought it was to be a star. 178 00:12:26,113 --> 00:12:27,515 I would see the violinists 179 00:12:27,549 --> 00:12:29,383 and that they always got the solos. 180 00:12:29,416 --> 00:12:31,261 You know, they seemed to be the rock star of the orchestra, 181 00:12:31,285 --> 00:12:32,530 so in my mind as a six-year-old, 182 00:12:32,554 --> 00:12:34,321 I was like, "I gotta get my hands 183 00:12:34,355 --> 00:12:35,557 on one of those wooden things. 184 00:12:35,590 --> 00:12:36,710 That's how I become a star." 185 00:12:39,426 --> 00:12:41,829 I begged my parents for two things: 186 00:12:41,862 --> 00:12:44,431 violin lessons, and I begged for dance lessons. 187 00:12:44,465 --> 00:12:47,434 They were able to scrape up enough money for one. 188 00:12:47,468 --> 00:12:50,304 I've always loved dance, but I chose the violin. 189 00:12:55,075 --> 00:12:57,512 I was in a pageant-style competition. 190 00:12:57,545 --> 00:12:59,280 It was called Junior Miss. 191 00:12:59,313 --> 00:13:01,258 And there was a lot of violinists in this competition, 192 00:13:01,282 --> 00:13:02,816 and I remember thinking, 193 00:13:02,850 --> 00:13:04,485 "If I do something really different..." 194 00:13:09,089 --> 00:13:11,091 It was the first time I ever danced 195 00:13:11,125 --> 00:13:14,562 while playing the violin. 196 00:13:14,596 --> 00:13:16,596 That was the moment I fell in love with performing. 197 00:13:23,538 --> 00:13:25,272 It was unlike any reaction 198 00:13:25,306 --> 00:13:27,007 I'd ever had from an audience. 199 00:13:27,041 --> 00:13:28,409 I'd had, like, approval, 200 00:13:28,442 --> 00:13:29,977 and I'd impressed people before, 201 00:13:30,010 --> 00:13:33,080 but I had never felt like I had entertained 202 00:13:33,113 --> 00:13:36,618 until that moment, and it was this addictive feeling. 203 00:13:36,651 --> 00:13:38,085 I thought, "I have to figure out 204 00:13:38,118 --> 00:13:40,120 how to make this my life." 205 00:13:42,423 --> 00:13:45,159 Musically, I was starting to write music. 206 00:13:45,192 --> 00:13:46,860 I was starting to dabble in it. 207 00:13:46,894 --> 00:13:49,496 I was realizing that, you know, I wanted to do music, 208 00:13:49,531 --> 00:13:53,334 but didn't have any idea how. 209 00:13:53,367 --> 00:13:55,869 I was in college trying to discover 210 00:13:55,903 --> 00:13:58,172 what I want to do with my life. 211 00:13:58,205 --> 00:14:00,542 Classes were overwhelming. 212 00:14:00,575 --> 00:14:04,011 I felt like my life was out of control. 213 00:14:04,044 --> 00:14:06,480 I just started to cling to food 214 00:14:06,514 --> 00:14:09,883 and become obsessive about it. 215 00:14:09,917 --> 00:14:11,418 It's all I thought about. 216 00:14:11,452 --> 00:14:12,920 I remember going to parties, 217 00:14:12,953 --> 00:14:15,155 and all you see is the food tray. 218 00:14:15,189 --> 00:14:18,058 And then you're like, "Who's the skinniest girl in the room? 219 00:14:18,092 --> 00:14:19,193 Is it me?" 220 00:14:21,328 --> 00:14:22,963 You know, I'd go on dates, 221 00:14:22,996 --> 00:14:24,575 but all I could think about was panicking 222 00:14:24,599 --> 00:14:26,409 when I realized they were taking me to a pizza spot 223 00:14:26,433 --> 00:14:30,070 and, like, thinking, "How can I avoid eating the pizza?" 224 00:14:30,104 --> 00:14:32,272 Feeling like I could control my weight 225 00:14:32,306 --> 00:14:35,008 seemed very empowering to me. 226 00:14:35,042 --> 00:14:37,478 Even though you think this is giving you a sense of control, 227 00:14:37,512 --> 00:14:39,213 there starts to be this inner dialogue 228 00:14:39,246 --> 00:14:41,148 that is actually controlling you, 229 00:14:41,181 --> 00:14:45,052 telling you that you're worthless. 230 00:14:45,085 --> 00:14:47,454 I didn't really care about my passion. 231 00:14:47,488 --> 00:14:51,191 I wasn't playing the violin anymore. 232 00:14:51,225 --> 00:14:54,128 My mom kept saying, "I think we need to figure something out. 233 00:14:54,161 --> 00:14:55,597 I think something's wrong." 234 00:14:55,630 --> 00:14:59,400 And one day, finally, it clicked, 235 00:14:59,433 --> 00:15:03,971 and I realized, "I think I'm anorexic." 236 00:15:20,688 --> 00:15:23,457 "Shatter Me" used the ballerina in a music box 237 00:15:23,490 --> 00:15:26,528 to be a metaphor for me being, you know, 238 00:15:26,561 --> 00:15:28,962 stuck in an eating disorder 239 00:15:28,996 --> 00:15:30,931 and feeling like I couldn't break free. 240 00:15:32,734 --> 00:15:36,571 ♪ Somebody shine a light 241 00:15:36,604 --> 00:15:40,374 ♪ I'm frozen by the fear in me ♪ 242 00:15:40,407 --> 00:15:44,077 ♪ Somebody make me feel all right ♪ 243 00:15:44,111 --> 00:15:47,214 ♪ And shatter me 244 00:16:19,112 --> 00:16:22,449 ♪ If only the clockwork could speak ♪ 245 00:16:22,483 --> 00:16:24,985 ♪ I wouldn't be so alone 246 00:16:31,826 --> 00:16:35,630 ♪ We'd burn every magnet and spring ♪ 247 00:16:35,663 --> 00:16:39,667 ♪ And spiral into the unknown ♪ 248 00:16:45,372 --> 00:16:48,676 ♪ Somebody shine a light 249 00:16:48,710 --> 00:16:52,145 ♪ I'm frozen by the fear in me ♪ 250 00:16:52,179 --> 00:16:55,082 ♪ Somebody make me feel alive 251 00:16:55,115 --> 00:16:58,653 ♪ And shatter me 252 00:16:58,686 --> 00:17:02,256 ♪ So cut me from the line 253 00:17:02,289 --> 00:17:05,660 ♪ Dizzy spinning endlessly 254 00:17:05,693 --> 00:17:08,462 ♪ Somebody make me feel alive ♪ 255 00:17:08,494 --> 00:17:12,366 ♪ And shatter me 256 00:17:23,578 --> 00:17:26,146 ♪ Shatter me 257 00:17:26,179 --> 00:17:29,449 ♪ If I break the glass then I'll have to fly ♪ 258 00:17:29,483 --> 00:17:30,852 ♪ There's no one to catch me 259 00:17:30,885 --> 00:17:33,086 ♪ If I take a dive 260 00:17:33,120 --> 00:17:36,123 ♪ I'm scared of change and the days stay the same ♪ 261 00:17:36,156 --> 00:17:39,359 ♪ The world is spinning but only in vain ♪ 262 00:17:39,393 --> 00:17:42,597 ♪ If I break the glass then I'll have to fly ♪ 263 00:17:42,630 --> 00:17:46,166 ♪ There's no one to catch me if I take a dive ♪ 264 00:17:46,199 --> 00:17:49,269 ♪ I'm scared of change and the days stay the same ♪ 265 00:17:49,303 --> 00:17:52,640 ♪ The world is spinning but only in vain ♪ 266 00:17:52,674 --> 00:17:55,475 It was one thing to change my eating habits, 267 00:17:55,510 --> 00:17:57,645 but it was a completely different process 268 00:17:57,679 --> 00:17:59,814 to try to change my automatic thoughts. 269 00:17:59,847 --> 00:18:01,592 Like, these voices in my head that would look in the mirror 270 00:18:01,616 --> 00:18:03,350 and say, "You're ugly." 271 00:18:03,383 --> 00:18:05,587 I would stop and I would say out loud, like, 272 00:18:05,620 --> 00:18:08,422 "You're beautiful." 273 00:18:08,455 --> 00:18:11,491 ♪ Somebody shine a light 274 00:18:11,526 --> 00:18:14,829 ♪ I'm frozen by the fear in me ♪ 275 00:18:14,862 --> 00:18:17,865 ♪ Somebody make me feel alive ♪ 276 00:18:17,899 --> 00:18:21,536 ♪ And shatter me 277 00:18:21,569 --> 00:18:24,872 ♪ So cut me from the line 278 00:18:24,906 --> 00:18:28,208 ♪ Dizzy spinning endlessly 279 00:18:28,241 --> 00:18:31,244 ♪ Somebody make me feel alive 280 00:18:31,278 --> 00:18:34,314 ♪ And shatter me 281 00:18:44,592 --> 00:18:48,195 ♪ Shatter me 282 00:18:54,468 --> 00:18:57,905 ♪ Somebody make me feel alive ♪ 283 00:18:57,939 --> 00:19:01,308 ♪ And shatter me 284 00:19:01,341 --> 00:19:02,910 In the road of recovery, 285 00:19:02,944 --> 00:19:05,445 I went on a search to find myself. 286 00:19:05,479 --> 00:19:07,815 Then I started to write music again, 287 00:19:07,849 --> 00:19:11,686 and, uh, I would never go back. 288 00:19:16,724 --> 00:19:18,726 How you doing? 289 00:19:18,760 --> 00:19:21,929 Good to see you too. 290 00:19:21,963 --> 00:19:23,665 They sensed the energy. 291 00:19:23,698 --> 00:19:26,266 Okay, let's do this. 292 00:19:33,240 --> 00:19:34,709 Good morning. 293 00:19:34,742 --> 00:19:36,511 We're backstage at the Dolby theater. 294 00:19:36,544 --> 00:19:38,378 Doughnuts. 295 00:19:38,412 --> 00:19:40,915 We've done the show over 30 times on this tour, 296 00:19:40,948 --> 00:19:42,650 but the Dolby theater, 297 00:19:42,684 --> 00:19:44,260 it's one of the biggest shows of my career, 298 00:19:44,284 --> 00:19:47,722 and how lucky am I that I get to be here? 299 00:19:47,755 --> 00:19:49,322 Whoo! 300 00:19:49,356 --> 00:19:51,425 Do you know if, uh, the dancers are awake? 301 00:19:51,458 --> 00:19:52,694 - Uh-huh. - Yeah? 302 00:19:52,727 --> 00:19:54,294 They're in their room there. 303 00:19:54,327 --> 00:19:55,471 - Oh, really? - At least a couple of them. 304 00:19:55,495 --> 00:19:56,664 Must be a special day. 305 00:19:56,698 --> 00:19:58,365 Being here at the Dolby theater, 306 00:19:58,398 --> 00:20:00,233 it's, you know, the biggest show of the tour. 307 00:20:00,267 --> 00:20:02,267 I mean, this is where they hold the Academy Awards. 308 00:20:07,274 --> 00:20:10,712 Wow, I haven't come out here yet. 309 00:20:10,745 --> 00:20:15,248 This is so... Wow, this is so beautiful. 310 00:20:15,282 --> 00:20:16,918 Holy cow. 311 00:20:16,951 --> 00:20:18,586 Looking up at those empty seats 312 00:20:18,619 --> 00:20:21,321 and just being like, "These are all going to be full 313 00:20:21,354 --> 00:20:23,624 of ravenous, crazy fans, 314 00:20:23,658 --> 00:20:25,292 it literally gives me goose bumps 315 00:20:25,325 --> 00:20:27,494 and just makes me giddy with excitement. 316 00:20:27,528 --> 00:20:29,964 Little spaceships all, like, you know, 317 00:20:29,997 --> 00:20:31,933 like Star Wars pods. 318 00:20:31,966 --> 00:20:34,802 "Emperor! We have a request." 319 00:20:34,836 --> 00:20:36,470 It's the LA show. 320 00:20:36,504 --> 00:20:38,506 The LA show always brings extra pressure 321 00:20:38,539 --> 00:20:40,675 because all the industry folks come out. 322 00:20:40,708 --> 00:20:42,510 This is your chance to be like, 323 00:20:42,543 --> 00:20:44,779 "I deserve to be on this stage," you know. 324 00:20:44,812 --> 00:20:46,413 Impress everyone. 325 00:20:46,446 --> 00:20:48,883 - Are you ready in five? - Uh, sorry. 326 00:20:48,916 --> 00:20:51,619 I'm just admiring my glory. 327 00:20:51,652 --> 00:20:53,353 Just, uh, running late. 328 00:20:53,386 --> 00:20:54,555 Oh, sorry. I'm sorry. 329 00:20:54,589 --> 00:20:55,757 It's all good. 330 00:20:55,790 --> 00:20:57,592 - Bye! - Bye. 331 00:21:01,495 --> 00:21:03,564 LA just makes you nervous, you know, 332 00:21:03,598 --> 00:21:05,008 'cause, like, all your friends are coming. 333 00:21:05,032 --> 00:21:07,769 Yeah, up in... I kept having nightmares 334 00:21:07,802 --> 00:21:09,302 for the last, like, week. 335 00:21:09,336 --> 00:21:10,872 There was a tornado coming in one, 336 00:21:10,905 --> 00:21:13,340 and I was stuck in this car that wouldn't drive. 337 00:21:13,373 --> 00:21:14,976 Like, that kind of nightmare. 338 00:21:15,009 --> 00:21:16,343 Wake up in a panic? 339 00:21:16,376 --> 00:21:17,779 And I wake up in, like, a panic. 340 00:21:17,812 --> 00:21:19,680 I'm nervous, but I'm excited. 341 00:21:19,714 --> 00:21:21,849 It's crazy to be playing at such an amazing, 342 00:21:21,883 --> 00:21:23,718 historic venue, 343 00:21:23,751 --> 00:21:25,485 especially when you think about 344 00:21:25,520 --> 00:21:29,389 how, you know, my career really started. 345 00:21:29,422 --> 00:21:32,760 After college, I had found my passion again 346 00:21:32,794 --> 00:21:34,461 and I wasn't about to give it up. 347 00:21:36,931 --> 00:21:38,833 I was starting to dabble 348 00:21:38,866 --> 00:21:41,736 in this new style of playing the violin and dancing. 349 00:21:41,769 --> 00:21:43,403 I was doing covers. 350 00:21:43,436 --> 00:21:44,872 I joined a country band, 351 00:21:44,906 --> 00:21:46,473 and it was the first time I was hired 352 00:21:46,507 --> 00:21:48,910 as a professional musician. 353 00:21:48,943 --> 00:21:50,845 I actually bought a book that was 354 00:21:50,878 --> 00:21:52,680 "How to Make It in the Music Industry," 355 00:21:52,713 --> 00:21:54,749 and it became something that I was obsessed with. 356 00:21:54,782 --> 00:21:57,819 The more I tried, the more it started to sound impossible, 357 00:21:57,852 --> 00:22:01,022 because agents and management and record labels 358 00:22:01,055 --> 00:22:03,423 all just kept saying to me, 359 00:22:03,456 --> 00:22:04,926 "It's really interesting, 360 00:22:04,959 --> 00:22:08,095 but, you know, you just don't fit in the box." 361 00:22:08,129 --> 00:22:10,965 I just kept knocking on door after door after door, 362 00:22:10,998 --> 00:22:13,534 and they just kept closing in my face. 363 00:22:13,568 --> 00:22:17,370 And then finally I had my moment. 364 00:22:17,404 --> 00:22:20,107 The energy in here tonight is on fire. 365 00:22:20,141 --> 00:22:21,776 And here are three words 366 00:22:21,809 --> 00:22:23,978 you don't often hear in the same sentence. 367 00:22:24,011 --> 00:22:25,746 Hip-hop violinist. 368 00:22:25,780 --> 00:22:27,515 But that's exactly what our next act is. 369 00:22:27,548 --> 00:22:30,918 She's Lindsey Stirling. 370 00:22:30,952 --> 00:22:34,121 I felt so inspired to go on that show. 371 00:22:34,155 --> 00:22:36,090 They tell you that this is your make or break. 372 00:22:36,123 --> 00:22:39,426 Like, this is your moment for you to have your shot. 373 00:22:39,459 --> 00:22:42,964 - I'm gonna say yes. - You're going to Hollywood. 374 00:22:42,997 --> 00:22:44,832 When I made it to the quarterfinals, 375 00:22:44,866 --> 00:22:48,102 like, in my mind, that meant that I was probably gonna win. 376 00:22:48,135 --> 00:22:49,971 Good seeing you. 377 00:22:50,004 --> 00:22:51,672 One problem. The violin. 378 00:22:51,706 --> 00:22:53,774 You end up missing loads of notes, 379 00:22:53,808 --> 00:22:55,509 and there were times when it sounded to me 380 00:22:55,543 --> 00:22:57,111 like a bunch of rats being strangled. 381 00:22:57,144 --> 00:22:58,613 Seriously. That bad. 382 00:23:00,715 --> 00:23:02,125 At that moment, I thought what they said was God's word. 383 00:23:02,149 --> 00:23:04,085 Like, "I don't have what it takes. 384 00:23:04,118 --> 00:23:07,588 You're right. I did sound terrible." 385 00:23:10,091 --> 00:23:12,760 I ran backstage, and I just found the only place 386 00:23:12,793 --> 00:23:14,729 I could be alone, which was the bathroom. 387 00:23:14,762 --> 00:23:17,598 You know, that's the only place the cameras wouldn't find me, 388 00:23:17,632 --> 00:23:20,935 and I just sat on the floor and I sobbed for hours 389 00:23:20,968 --> 00:23:23,170 until the cleaning staff came in, 390 00:23:23,204 --> 00:23:26,107 and they were like, "Oh, we didn't know anybody was still here." 391 00:23:26,140 --> 00:23:28,009 Like, "Hon, we're closed up for the night." 392 00:23:28,042 --> 00:23:29,744 Like, "You gotta go home." 393 00:23:29,777 --> 00:23:31,746 I don't think what you're doing right now 394 00:23:31,779 --> 00:23:36,684 is enough to fill a theater in Vegas. 395 00:23:43,157 --> 00:23:44,926 I remember feeling that night 396 00:23:44,959 --> 00:23:47,628 that I had blown the biggest moment of my life. 397 00:23:47,662 --> 00:23:49,864 Thank you so much, LA! 398 00:23:49,897 --> 00:23:51,232 But I've come, since that moment, 399 00:23:51,265 --> 00:23:52,967 to realize that life is kind, 400 00:23:53,000 --> 00:23:55,169 and it will give you another opportunity. 401 00:27:46,767 --> 00:27:49,136 After "America's Got Talent," it hurt so bad, 402 00:27:49,170 --> 00:27:51,972 but something inside me wasn't ready to give up yet, 403 00:27:52,006 --> 00:27:53,774 and so I started to write, 404 00:27:53,807 --> 00:27:56,443 and I started experimenting with dubstep music. 405 00:27:56,477 --> 00:27:59,446 There was not a lot of EDM producers 406 00:27:59,480 --> 00:28:00,915 living in Provo, Utah, 407 00:28:00,948 --> 00:28:02,116 but I found one guy... 408 00:28:02,149 --> 00:28:03,884 This is Mark OG, everybody. 409 00:28:03,918 --> 00:28:05,085 - How you doing? - Yeah. 410 00:28:05,119 --> 00:28:06,921 He is the best, and he makes me 411 00:28:06,954 --> 00:28:08,989 look super... And sound super good. 412 00:28:17,231 --> 00:28:19,033 I would have to, you know, pay him 413 00:28:19,066 --> 00:28:20,911 before I even started to create a track with him, 414 00:28:20,935 --> 00:28:22,303 because I had this idea 415 00:28:22,336 --> 00:28:23,938 of being a dancing, electronic violinist. 416 00:28:23,971 --> 00:28:25,839 No one's gonna take a risk on that, 417 00:28:25,873 --> 00:28:27,918 so I... you know, every time I could earn enough money, 418 00:28:27,942 --> 00:28:29,511 I would create a new track. 419 00:28:29,544 --> 00:28:32,514 Basically, all my savings went into this project 420 00:28:32,547 --> 00:28:34,281 that I didn't even know if I could do. 421 00:29:52,192 --> 00:29:54,404 We wrote three songs, they'd been sitting on iTunes. 422 00:29:54,428 --> 00:29:57,464 My mom bought them and my grandma bought them, 423 00:29:57,498 --> 00:30:00,502 and that's about it. 424 00:30:00,535 --> 00:30:03,538 Suddenly, I put up this one video on YouTube, 425 00:30:03,571 --> 00:30:05,005 and they started to sell. 426 00:30:05,039 --> 00:30:06,407 I saw the iTunes spike. 427 00:30:26,427 --> 00:30:28,329 I finished my first album when I was 26. 428 00:30:28,362 --> 00:30:31,932 And I was on my first tour, like, a week later. 429 00:30:31,965 --> 00:30:34,968 Everybody wanna introduce yourself to the camera? 430 00:30:35,002 --> 00:30:37,204 I'm Drew, the drummer. 431 00:30:37,237 --> 00:30:39,239 Gavi, the piano guy. 432 00:30:39,273 --> 00:30:40,651 Can't see Gavi the piano guy. 433 00:30:40,675 --> 00:30:43,377 - Piano guy. - Yay. 434 00:30:43,410 --> 00:30:46,914 - Wow, that is amazing. - This is 'cause this guy. 435 00:30:46,947 --> 00:30:48,583 I met Gavi and Drew 436 00:30:48,616 --> 00:30:51,919 two days before my very first ever ticketed show. 437 00:30:51,952 --> 00:30:54,121 Just kinda got them word of mouth, you know. 438 00:30:54,154 --> 00:30:55,590 I'd never met them before, 439 00:30:55,623 --> 00:30:58,125 and here we are rehearsing for my first ever show. 440 00:31:00,094 --> 00:31:02,930 On that first tour, we were doing these tiny, little venues 441 00:31:02,963 --> 00:31:04,298 that were, like, 200 people, 442 00:31:04,331 --> 00:31:07,067 and I was, like, living the dream. 443 00:31:07,101 --> 00:31:09,002 I was like, "I can't believe I'm a rock star." 444 00:31:09,036 --> 00:31:10,371 Like, "I love this." 445 00:31:10,404 --> 00:31:12,172 And I was meeting fans for the first time. 446 00:31:12,206 --> 00:31:13,608 Thanks so much for coming out today. 447 00:31:13,641 --> 00:31:16,210 Ugh. Have you guys had fun at the festival? 448 00:31:16,243 --> 00:31:18,245 - Yeah! - Yeah? 449 00:31:18,278 --> 00:31:21,148 As a band, our relationship grew over time, 450 00:31:21,181 --> 00:31:24,351 and Lindsey and Gavi got very, very close 451 00:31:24,385 --> 00:31:26,387 as far as, like... They just became best friends. 452 00:31:26,420 --> 00:31:29,156 She's being a good team member right now. 453 00:31:29,189 --> 00:31:31,392 My band colors with me. 454 00:31:33,460 --> 00:31:35,563 Don't pretend you're not enjoying this. 455 00:31:35,597 --> 00:31:37,364 Oh, this is awesome. 456 00:31:37,398 --> 00:31:39,075 You're showing your manlihood right now. 457 00:31:39,099 --> 00:31:40,711 Yeah, I'm flexing while I do this, though, 458 00:31:40,735 --> 00:31:42,403 so it's all good. 459 00:31:42,436 --> 00:31:43,605 From the moment I met Gavi, 460 00:31:43,638 --> 00:31:45,573 he made me feel just at ease. 461 00:31:45,607 --> 00:31:46,974 Almost like an older brother. 462 00:31:47,007 --> 00:31:48,275 Gavi and I can never sleep 463 00:31:48,308 --> 00:31:50,344 past, like, 7:00 in the morning, 464 00:31:50,377 --> 00:31:54,281 so we hang out here in the captain's seat. 465 00:31:54,314 --> 00:31:56,283 But it's nice being up here. 466 00:31:56,316 --> 00:31:57,985 We get first glance at the scenery 467 00:31:58,018 --> 00:32:00,020 while everybody else is still asleep. 468 00:32:00,053 --> 00:32:01,556 We would just talk about life 469 00:32:01,589 --> 00:32:03,625 and, you know, and laugh together. 470 00:32:03,658 --> 00:32:06,026 I just took picture by the Christmas tree out there. 471 00:32:06,059 --> 00:32:07,562 - Oh, my gosh. - Christmas came early. 472 00:32:10,497 --> 00:32:12,065 You know, when you have people 473 00:32:12,099 --> 00:32:13,143 that you can sit there and do nothing with 474 00:32:13,167 --> 00:32:14,435 and love every second of it... 475 00:32:14,468 --> 00:32:16,738 Wolf pack. Animal pack. 476 00:32:16,771 --> 00:32:18,472 You know, those are your best friends. 477 00:32:18,506 --> 00:32:21,208 Those are the people that will be with you forever. 478 00:32:29,249 --> 00:32:32,252 For the first 18 months of touring, 479 00:32:32,286 --> 00:32:34,488 every single show sold out. 480 00:32:34,522 --> 00:32:37,324 For nearly a year and a half. 481 00:32:37,357 --> 00:32:39,993 Then it was like, "Oh, well, that 400-seater 482 00:32:40,027 --> 00:32:41,261 sold out really quickly. 483 00:32:41,295 --> 00:32:42,372 Let's go up to the 800-seater." 484 00:32:42,396 --> 00:32:44,131 That one sold out again. 485 00:32:44,164 --> 00:32:45,576 "Okay, let's go up to the 1,200-seater." 486 00:32:45,600 --> 00:32:48,202 We're like, "This is real." 487 00:34:19,393 --> 00:34:22,764 Gavi? Gav... 488 00:34:22,797 --> 00:34:25,331 - What's up? - I was just gonna ask you about this show. 489 00:34:25,364 --> 00:34:26,466 Your thoughts right now. 490 00:34:26,501 --> 00:34:28,368 This is fun. 491 00:34:28,402 --> 00:34:32,507 I've come to the conclusion that you never take for granted 492 00:34:32,540 --> 00:34:34,474 the people that come to see you play. 493 00:34:34,509 --> 00:34:36,152 I think it's very cool people are out here. 494 00:34:36,176 --> 00:34:37,679 We're in the middle of Tokyo 495 00:34:37,712 --> 00:34:39,880 and people are out here to see Lindsey play, 496 00:34:39,914 --> 00:34:42,282 so I'm excited. 497 00:34:42,315 --> 00:34:43,494 I've been begging my booking agent 498 00:34:43,518 --> 00:34:45,217 to bring us to Asia for a while, 499 00:34:45,252 --> 00:34:47,487 and now it's just crazy that here we are. 500 00:34:47,522 --> 00:34:49,389 I was making all these little music videos. 501 00:34:49,422 --> 00:34:51,391 My fan base grew exponentially, 502 00:34:51,425 --> 00:34:53,159 And Drew and Gavi and I 503 00:34:53,193 --> 00:34:56,396 set out to do basically a full world tour. 504 00:34:59,534 --> 00:35:01,234 I've said the wrong city twice. 505 00:35:09,443 --> 00:35:12,446 - Wow. - I'm freezing. 506 00:35:12,479 --> 00:35:14,348 The crazy part. Right there. 507 00:35:14,381 --> 00:35:16,584 You're on an animal. You're on an animal. 508 00:35:16,618 --> 00:35:18,786 Last year, we were actually on tour, 509 00:35:18,820 --> 00:35:21,388 and, um, you know, in the middle of tour 510 00:35:21,421 --> 00:35:25,359 we found out that Gavi had, uh, lymphoma cancer. 511 00:35:39,239 --> 00:35:41,441 Gavi got sick very quickly. 512 00:35:41,475 --> 00:35:43,878 He went home immediately. 513 00:35:47,548 --> 00:35:49,349 Okay, so I'm gonna send this to you. 514 00:35:49,383 --> 00:35:51,552 I think you guys are about to go on right now. 515 00:35:51,586 --> 00:35:54,656 9:30. So I'm gonna be a part. Ready? 516 00:35:54,689 --> 00:35:58,693 This is why... 517 00:36:01,428 --> 00:36:04,899 The doctors were very sure that he would get better. 518 00:36:13,641 --> 00:36:16,243 He did get better. He was cancer-free. 519 00:36:16,276 --> 00:36:17,879 He left the hospital. 520 00:36:17,912 --> 00:36:20,213 We had a welcome home party for him. 521 00:36:29,322 --> 00:36:31,391 I didn't think that that welcome home party 522 00:36:31,425 --> 00:36:32,927 would be the last time that I saw him. 523 00:36:43,336 --> 00:36:46,373 It was the most devastating moment of my life, 524 00:36:46,406 --> 00:36:48,810 realizing that my best friend was just gone. 525 00:37:14,434 --> 00:37:18,271 Before he got sick, Gavi and I started writing a song together 526 00:37:18,305 --> 00:37:19,473 one day during sound check, 527 00:37:19,507 --> 00:37:21,475 and I kept promising him 528 00:37:21,509 --> 00:37:24,679 that we're gonna finish that song that we started. 529 00:37:24,712 --> 00:37:26,379 And it never even occurred to me 530 00:37:26,413 --> 00:37:27,849 that he might not get better. 531 00:37:27,882 --> 00:37:30,017 It just wasn't a possibility in my mind. 532 00:37:31,919 --> 00:37:35,322 So this is Gavi's song. 533 00:38:13,728 --> 00:38:16,898 After Gavi passed away, I just kind of closed up. 534 00:38:16,931 --> 00:38:20,001 I was so almost numb to everything. 535 00:38:20,034 --> 00:38:23,403 But one thing my dad tells me all the time, 536 00:38:23,436 --> 00:38:25,106 he's told me my whole life, 537 00:38:25,139 --> 00:38:28,441 is that you're never alone no matter how alone you feel. 538 00:38:28,475 --> 00:38:31,411 Our loved ones aren't gone after they pass away. 539 00:38:33,548 --> 00:38:35,016 Every time I went in the studio, 540 00:38:35,049 --> 00:38:37,118 I wore something that reminded me of him, 541 00:38:37,151 --> 00:38:40,855 and I would also pray that Gavi would help me write. 542 00:38:43,791 --> 00:38:45,492 It's been really hard. 543 00:38:45,526 --> 00:38:47,862 I remember just being terrified to go on the road 544 00:38:47,895 --> 00:38:49,530 without Gavi. 545 00:38:49,564 --> 00:38:51,065 Being surrounded by that environment 546 00:38:51,098 --> 00:38:52,867 that I knew him the best in, 547 00:38:52,900 --> 00:38:55,069 seeing, you know, the keyboard setup, 548 00:38:55,102 --> 00:38:56,737 and just all these things 549 00:38:56,771 --> 00:38:59,941 stirred up so many memories that were so close. 550 00:38:59,974 --> 00:39:02,442 Just... I couldn't believe they weren't there... 551 00:39:02,475 --> 00:39:03,945 They weren't happening anymore. 552 00:39:03,978 --> 00:39:06,479 And this goes down further to the ground, right? 553 00:39:06,514 --> 00:39:08,516 Uh, actually, I'm not sure. 554 00:39:08,549 --> 00:39:09,993 I haven't looked at the framing of it yet. 555 00:39:10,017 --> 00:39:11,886 Still gotta be lower. 556 00:39:11,919 --> 00:39:14,789 It's about a foot too high. 557 00:39:14,822 --> 00:39:17,859 Grief is a very strange thing. 558 00:39:17,892 --> 00:39:20,460 It comes at you when you least expect it. 559 00:39:20,493 --> 00:39:21,996 It comes in waves. 560 00:39:22,029 --> 00:39:23,898 And it can be triggered by something 561 00:39:23,931 --> 00:39:26,033 that you would never even imagine. 562 00:39:28,703 --> 00:39:32,740 So I'm really upset 563 00:39:32,773 --> 00:39:37,545 because, um, man... 564 00:39:37,578 --> 00:39:39,981 oh, I'm just so disappointed. 565 00:39:40,014 --> 00:39:43,517 I've planned this whole show. 566 00:39:43,551 --> 00:39:45,853 Half of it is built around this idea 567 00:39:45,887 --> 00:39:50,024 of this scrim, and I was told it would look a certain way, 568 00:39:50,057 --> 00:39:51,959 and, um, it's not working, 569 00:39:51,993 --> 00:39:55,096 and I'm just kinda devastated about it. 570 00:39:55,129 --> 00:39:57,932 You know, man, if I was just 571 00:39:57,965 --> 00:40:01,035 a better violinist, 572 00:40:01,068 --> 00:40:02,837 if I could just play better, 573 00:40:02,870 --> 00:40:08,109 I wouldn't have to plan all these stupid tricks and... 574 00:40:08,142 --> 00:40:12,513 visuals and dancing and costumes 575 00:40:12,546 --> 00:40:15,349 to cover up the fact that I'm just mediocre. 576 00:40:19,220 --> 00:40:22,657 I'm at a loss. 577 00:40:22,690 --> 00:40:24,892 So disappointed, 578 00:40:24,926 --> 00:40:28,696 and also right now I'm just, 579 00:40:28,729 --> 00:40:31,464 you know, this is when... you know, 580 00:40:31,498 --> 00:40:34,201 it's moments like this when Gavi would come find me 581 00:40:34,235 --> 00:40:38,105 and he would, you know, he'd give me a big hug 582 00:40:38,139 --> 00:40:42,043 and he'd tell me that everything was gonna be okay. 583 00:40:42,076 --> 00:40:45,546 He was always the first person to come find me 584 00:40:45,579 --> 00:40:48,816 when I'd run off and, you know, be worried, 585 00:40:48,849 --> 00:40:52,186 and now he's not here. 586 00:40:52,219 --> 00:40:55,122 My whole album was written about being brave enough... 587 00:40:55,156 --> 00:40:57,725 Brave enough to feel. 588 00:40:57,758 --> 00:40:59,894 And sometimes I have... This is a dark time, 589 00:40:59,927 --> 00:41:01,595 and at moments like this, 590 00:41:01,629 --> 00:41:04,265 I just stop... I almost just try to stop feeling 591 00:41:04,298 --> 00:41:08,269 because I'm too scared. 592 00:41:08,302 --> 00:41:10,137 I got that one, though. 593 00:41:10,171 --> 00:41:11,539 Yeah, that little rat. 594 00:41:11,572 --> 00:41:13,708 Hi, Luna. 595 00:41:13,741 --> 00:41:16,544 Oh, gosh, I look terrible. 596 00:41:22,883 --> 00:41:25,086 Do you like this shot? 597 00:41:25,119 --> 00:41:28,522 I don't think I ever saw that. 598 00:41:28,556 --> 00:41:31,592 In so many ways, Gavi's a huge part of this tour, 599 00:41:31,625 --> 00:41:33,260 of this album. 600 00:41:33,294 --> 00:41:34,829 I know he's been there with me 601 00:41:34,862 --> 00:41:37,965 not only in the studio, but he loved the stage, 602 00:41:37,999 --> 00:41:39,600 and I know he's there with me. 603 00:41:39,633 --> 00:41:41,569 This one's gonna make you cry. 604 00:41:41,602 --> 00:41:42,937 - It already did. - Really? 605 00:41:42,970 --> 00:41:44,538 Oh, my goodness. Every time. 606 00:41:44,572 --> 00:41:46,841 Think we're all gonna be bawling every day. 607 00:41:46,874 --> 00:41:48,251 I invited his mom to the show, 608 00:41:48,275 --> 00:41:50,011 and I was like, "There's gonna be, like, 609 00:41:50,044 --> 00:41:51,712 a big tribute to Gavi in it." 610 00:41:51,746 --> 00:41:54,648 Gavi's mom is coming to the show tonight, 611 00:41:54,682 --> 00:41:57,118 and it's the first time she's been to a show 612 00:41:57,151 --> 00:41:59,220 since he passed away. 613 00:41:59,253 --> 00:42:02,990 And I actually haven't seen his mom since his service. 614 00:42:03,024 --> 00:42:04,992 I'm hoping that I say the right things 615 00:42:05,026 --> 00:42:07,028 and that it comes out, um, you know, 616 00:42:07,061 --> 00:42:09,296 comes out in a very special way. 617 00:42:09,330 --> 00:42:11,799 At his service, over and over again, 618 00:42:11,832 --> 00:42:14,802 people kept saying that Gavi was so brave... 619 00:42:14,835 --> 00:42:16,904 He was so brave with his heart, 620 00:42:16,937 --> 00:42:19,173 and that struck me, and I thought, "That's so true." 621 00:42:19,206 --> 00:42:22,943 Gavi lived with his whole heart and he was so brave in that way, 622 00:42:22,977 --> 00:42:26,614 something that I had never been brave enough to be, 623 00:42:26,647 --> 00:42:29,617 and so my album is called "Brave Enough." 624 00:42:29,650 --> 00:42:31,786 This tour is the "Brave Enough" tour 625 00:42:31,819 --> 00:42:34,021 and it's all based around this idea 626 00:42:34,055 --> 00:42:37,058 of what I was inspired by Gavi to be, 627 00:42:37,091 --> 00:42:40,628 and it was to live life in a brave enough way. 628 00:42:50,871 --> 00:42:55,743 ♪ I remember, I remember those days ♪ 629 00:42:55,776 --> 00:43:00,648 ♪ Laughing out loud, staying up too late ♪ 630 00:43:00,681 --> 00:43:06,187 ♪ Staring out the window as I see your face ♪ 631 00:43:06,220 --> 00:43:08,722 ♪ I remember, I remember those days ♪ 632 00:43:08,756 --> 00:43:10,724 ♪ I remember those days 633 00:43:10,758 --> 00:43:15,096 ♪ We had a little bit of time, but it's never enough ♪ 634 00:43:15,129 --> 00:43:16,964 ♪ Remember driving all night 635 00:43:16,997 --> 00:43:20,901 ♪ We'd been talking 'bout love ♪ 636 00:43:20,935 --> 00:43:25,139 ♪ Now that you're gone it sure is tough ♪ 637 00:43:25,172 --> 00:43:28,642 ♪ We had a little bit of time but it's never enough ♪ 638 00:43:28,676 --> 00:43:30,845 ♪ No, it's never enough 639 00:43:33,447 --> 00:43:38,719 ♪ I remember, I remember those days ♪ 640 00:43:38,752 --> 00:43:41,755 ♪ I remember, I remember those days ♪ 641 00:43:41,789 --> 00:43:43,824 ♪ Yeah 642 00:43:43,858 --> 00:43:48,329 ♪ I remember, I remember those days ♪ 643 00:43:48,362 --> 00:43:50,931 ♪ I remember those days 644 00:44:10,751 --> 00:44:15,823 ♪ I remember, I remember those eyes ♪ 645 00:44:15,856 --> 00:44:20,728 ♪ They saw my heart without any disguise, yeah ♪ 646 00:44:20,761 --> 00:44:25,466 ♪ And in your arms there's nothing to hide ♪ 647 00:44:25,499 --> 00:44:28,869 ♪ I remember, I remember those eyes ♪ 648 00:44:28,903 --> 00:44:30,971 ♪ I remember those eyes 649 00:44:33,274 --> 00:44:38,479 ♪ I remember, I remember those days ♪ 650 00:44:38,513 --> 00:44:41,849 ♪ I remember, I remember those days ♪ 651 00:44:41,882 --> 00:44:43,918 ♪ Yeah 652 00:44:43,951 --> 00:44:48,722 ♪ I remember, I remember those days ♪ 653 00:44:48,756 --> 00:44:50,891 ♪ I remember those days 654 00:45:43,210 --> 00:45:48,516 ♪ I remember, I remember those days ♪ 655 00:45:48,550 --> 00:45:53,555 ♪ I remember, I remember those days ♪ 656 00:45:53,588 --> 00:45:58,859 ♪ I remember, I remember those days, yeah ♪ 657 00:45:58,892 --> 00:46:01,362 ♪ I remember those days 658 00:46:01,395 --> 00:46:04,865 ♪ I remember, I remember those days ♪ 659 00:46:04,898 --> 00:46:06,467 Love you. 660 00:46:06,501 --> 00:46:08,869 Love you guys. 661 00:46:08,902 --> 00:46:11,105 ♪ I remember those days 662 00:46:13,941 --> 00:46:16,544 - Oh. - I know. I'm gray now. 663 00:46:16,578 --> 00:46:20,281 You look beautiful. 664 00:46:20,314 --> 00:46:22,182 Such a beautiful, 665 00:46:22,216 --> 00:46:24,084 beautiful tribute to him. 666 00:46:24,118 --> 00:46:25,953 I was crying, so I missed... 667 00:46:25,986 --> 00:46:27,555 You know, we have in spirit brought Gavi 668 00:46:27,589 --> 00:46:30,291 around the world with us the last few months. 669 00:46:30,324 --> 00:46:32,192 He's still a part of what we do, 670 00:46:32,226 --> 00:46:34,395 and he'll always be a part of this show. 671 00:46:34,428 --> 00:46:36,497 That makes me feel so good 672 00:46:36,531 --> 00:46:39,366 to know that he's still appearing in people's lives, you know. 673 00:46:39,400 --> 00:46:41,135 Oh, 100%. 674 00:46:41,168 --> 00:46:42,936 Just hearing her talk about Jason 675 00:46:42,970 --> 00:46:47,241 and what, you know, he meant to her was wonderful, 676 00:46:47,274 --> 00:46:49,343 and he was always goofy and silly, 677 00:46:49,376 --> 00:46:51,845 and I think he found a kindred soul in Lindsey, 678 00:46:51,879 --> 00:46:53,480 'cause I think she's like that too, 679 00:46:53,515 --> 00:46:55,449 so they had a wonderful time together. 680 00:46:55,482 --> 00:46:57,484 I hope that you... 681 00:46:57,519 --> 00:47:00,154 felt his spirit there. 682 00:47:00,187 --> 00:47:02,289 Being vulnerable and living with your whole heart 683 00:47:02,323 --> 00:47:03,991 is a lifelong pursuit. 684 00:47:04,024 --> 00:47:05,560 It's not something you learn in a year. 685 00:47:05,593 --> 00:47:08,996 I've been sharing this story of being brave enough, 686 00:47:09,029 --> 00:47:11,999 you know, now every night for 40 shows. 687 00:47:12,032 --> 00:47:16,003 It took me about 20 shows to not sob through that number. 688 00:47:16,036 --> 00:47:18,906 Like, I'm at a good place. It's been kinda therapeutic. 689 00:47:18,939 --> 00:47:21,609 You know, it felt like I hoped it would feel 690 00:47:21,643 --> 00:47:24,278 to be able to see what the show meant to her. 691 00:47:24,311 --> 00:47:26,880 Thank you for being here. You're amazing. 692 00:47:26,914 --> 00:47:28,916 And also it made me realize 693 00:47:28,949 --> 00:47:30,351 that it's so important to me 694 00:47:30,384 --> 00:47:33,320 to continue to share this message. 695 00:47:35,456 --> 00:47:37,157 Oh, I just got a great idea. 696 00:47:39,460 --> 00:47:41,328 Yeah, it's really cool. 697 00:47:41,362 --> 00:47:42,896 Um, I'm actually thinking... 698 00:47:42,930 --> 00:47:44,465 Let me see. Open this up. 699 00:47:44,498 --> 00:47:46,176 The show gets kinda heavy at a certain point, 700 00:47:46,200 --> 00:47:48,603 where I talk about loss, I talk about grief, 701 00:47:48,636 --> 00:47:50,304 talking about how life goes on 702 00:47:50,337 --> 00:47:52,206 and, you know, playing Gavi's song, 703 00:47:52,239 --> 00:47:54,475 and so I wanted to kind of come out of that 704 00:47:54,509 --> 00:47:56,910 into something a little lighter, 705 00:47:56,944 --> 00:47:58,680 and so I decided I would do some magic. 706 00:47:58,713 --> 00:48:00,447 Yeah, so come out with it, 707 00:48:00,481 --> 00:48:02,349 spin it around, and also, like, 708 00:48:02,383 --> 00:48:04,952 you know, when you unveil and I'm in there, 709 00:48:04,985 --> 00:48:06,588 um, you know, you guys do that... 710 00:48:06,621 --> 00:48:08,590 And then quickly open it. 711 00:48:08,623 --> 00:48:10,924 Magic makes things new. It makes things exciting. 712 00:48:10,958 --> 00:48:12,503 It makes people feel like a little kid again 713 00:48:12,527 --> 00:48:13,561 when they're watching it. 714 00:48:13,595 --> 00:48:15,597 WoPerfect. 715 00:48:15,630 --> 00:48:17,931 You know, even though there's all this hard, heavy stuff 716 00:48:17,965 --> 00:48:20,602 that is in everyday life, you know, 717 00:48:20,635 --> 00:48:23,571 there's also magic. 718 00:48:23,605 --> 00:48:25,607 WoCome in. 719 00:48:25,640 --> 00:48:27,575 Hi. I just wanted to say hey... 720 00:48:27,609 --> 00:48:29,977 - Oh! - Hi. How you doing? 721 00:48:30,010 --> 00:48:31,513 What's up? I'm so good. How are you? 722 00:48:31,546 --> 00:48:34,047 Good to see you. Good. Thanks for having us. 723 00:48:34,081 --> 00:48:36,216 ZZ and I wrote "Hold My Heart" together, 724 00:48:36,250 --> 00:48:38,085 so she will be singing that 725 00:48:38,118 --> 00:48:39,654 and performing that live with us. 726 00:48:39,687 --> 00:48:41,689 - How's the tour going? - It's been so good. 727 00:48:41,723 --> 00:48:43,390 - Yeah? - Been a super fun tour. 728 00:48:43,424 --> 00:48:45,159 Like, I love the show, 729 00:48:45,192 --> 00:48:47,428 and I think my favorite number is "Hold My Heart." 730 00:48:47,461 --> 00:48:50,097 - Really? - Yeah, we do, like, a whole magic thing. 731 00:48:50,130 --> 00:48:53,100 - Yes! - People love that song. 732 00:48:53,133 --> 00:48:56,069 Six months ago, uh, went in the studio with Lindsey. 733 00:48:56,103 --> 00:48:58,172 She really knew what she wanted. 734 00:48:58,205 --> 00:49:02,409 You know, for her to want me to bring my style 735 00:49:02,443 --> 00:49:06,280 and my artistry to the collaboration is great. 736 00:49:06,313 --> 00:49:09,116 Can I watch the magic show as it's happening, though? 737 00:49:09,149 --> 00:49:11,452 Oh, like, what we're doing? 738 00:49:11,485 --> 00:49:13,053 How it works? 739 00:49:13,086 --> 00:49:14,632 Yeah, what you guys are doing is so cool. 740 00:49:14,656 --> 00:49:17,124 A magician never reveals her tricks. 741 00:49:17,157 --> 00:49:21,094 I think it's amazing when someone can put their own story 742 00:49:21,128 --> 00:49:25,499 into their music and into their whole show, 743 00:49:25,533 --> 00:49:28,570 and, uh, I think the song is boss. 744 00:49:28,603 --> 00:49:30,471 I really love the song. 745 00:49:30,505 --> 00:49:34,742 ♪ I need a hero to save me 746 00:49:34,776 --> 00:49:38,378 ♪ I'm not a girl to set free ♪ 747 00:49:43,217 --> 00:49:48,255 ♪ It's nothing you did to me ♪ 748 00:49:48,288 --> 00:49:51,391 ♪ I've always been this way 749 00:49:59,767 --> 00:50:02,336 ♪ I might be strong 750 00:50:02,369 --> 00:50:05,105 ♪ I might be weak 751 00:50:05,138 --> 00:50:09,409 ♪ There might be a part of me that I won't let you keep ♪ 752 00:50:09,443 --> 00:50:11,746 ♪ Been on this road 753 00:50:11,779 --> 00:50:13,748 ♪ And come this far 754 00:50:13,781 --> 00:50:16,116 ♪ Don't need a man to hold my hand ♪ 755 00:50:16,149 --> 00:50:18,786 ♪ I just want one to hold my heart ♪ 756 00:50:26,628 --> 00:50:28,495 ♪ I just want one to hold my ♪ 757 00:50:28,530 --> 00:50:30,097 ♪ Heart 758 00:50:36,871 --> 00:50:38,105 ♪ Hold my 759 00:50:38,138 --> 00:50:39,674 ♪ Heart 760 00:50:46,614 --> 00:50:49,617 ♪ Don't be afraid to hold this ♪ 761 00:50:51,451 --> 00:50:54,454 ♪ Even the thorns have roses ♪ 762 00:50:56,724 --> 00:50:59,727 ♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh 763 00:50:59,761 --> 00:51:01,529 ♪ I know I can stand alone 764 00:51:04,231 --> 00:51:06,266 ♪ But I can't love on my own ♪ 765 00:51:06,300 --> 00:51:09,169 ♪ I might be strong 766 00:51:09,202 --> 00:51:11,506 ♪ I might be weak 767 00:51:11,539 --> 00:51:16,143 ♪ There might be a part of me that I won't let you keep ♪ 768 00:51:16,176 --> 00:51:18,478 ♪ Been on this road 769 00:51:18,513 --> 00:51:20,314 ♪ And come this far 770 00:51:20,347 --> 00:51:22,449 ♪ Don't need a man to hold my hand ♪ 771 00:51:22,482 --> 00:51:25,218 ♪ I just want one to hold my heart ♪ 772 00:51:33,460 --> 00:51:35,295 ♪ I just want one to hold my ♪ 773 00:51:35,329 --> 00:51:36,396 ♪ Heart 774 00:51:44,204 --> 00:51:47,508 ♪ Ooh 775 00:51:47,542 --> 00:51:50,210 ♪ Oh 776 00:51:56,918 --> 00:51:59,587 ♪ Oh 777 00:52:06,426 --> 00:52:09,429 ♪ Oh 778 00:52:12,667 --> 00:52:15,235 ♪ Want you to, want you to hold my heart ♪ 779 00:52:15,268 --> 00:52:17,572 ♪ Want you to, want you to hold my heart ♪ 780 00:52:17,605 --> 00:52:19,807 ♪ Want you to, want you to hold my heart ♪ 781 00:52:19,841 --> 00:52:22,242 ♪ Want you to, want you to hold my heart ♪ 782 00:52:22,275 --> 00:52:24,579 ♪ Want you to, want you to hold my heart ♪ 783 00:52:24,612 --> 00:52:27,414 ♪ Want you to, want you to hold my heart ♪ 784 00:52:27,447 --> 00:52:29,493 ♪ Want you to, want you to, want you to, want you to ♪ 785 00:52:29,517 --> 00:52:31,819 ♪ Want you to, want you to hold my heart ♪ 786 00:52:31,853 --> 00:52:34,622 ♪ I might be strong 787 00:52:34,656 --> 00:52:36,624 ♪ I might be weak 788 00:52:36,658 --> 00:52:41,228 ♪ There might be a part of me that I won't let you keep ♪ 789 00:52:41,261 --> 00:52:43,898 ♪ Been on this road 790 00:52:43,931 --> 00:52:45,867 ♪ And come this far 791 00:52:45,900 --> 00:52:48,335 ♪ Don't need a man to hold my hand ♪ 792 00:52:48,368 --> 00:52:51,706 ♪ I just want one to hold my heart ♪ 793 00:52:51,739 --> 00:52:55,510 ♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh 794 00:52:58,513 --> 00:53:00,748 ♪ I just want one to hold my ♪ 795 00:53:00,782 --> 00:53:02,282 ♪ Heart 796 00:53:04,852 --> 00:53:09,691 ♪ Ooh, I just want one to hold my heart ♪ 797 00:53:13,528 --> 00:53:15,663 The record's extremely personal for her. 798 00:53:15,697 --> 00:53:19,433 She's learned how to kind of reopen herself 799 00:53:19,466 --> 00:53:22,302 and reopen her heart into actually finding happiness 800 00:53:22,335 --> 00:53:25,707 and not being shut off from the world emotionally. 801 00:53:25,740 --> 00:53:29,010 Thank you so much. How you guys doing? 802 00:53:31,411 --> 00:53:34,782 What about the top balcony? How are you doing up there? 803 00:53:37,051 --> 00:53:38,385 Whew! 804 00:53:38,418 --> 00:53:39,987 It means so much to me 805 00:53:40,021 --> 00:53:42,489 when you get this connection with your audience 806 00:53:42,523 --> 00:53:44,659 and when you can see that they felt it, 807 00:53:44,692 --> 00:53:46,794 they felt all the things that I felt on stage. 808 00:53:46,828 --> 00:53:50,832 Hi, Luna! Hey, nice suit, by the way. 809 00:53:50,865 --> 00:53:53,000 Okay, spin. Spin. 810 00:53:53,034 --> 00:53:55,636 My favorite comment is when people say 811 00:53:55,670 --> 00:53:58,271 they laughed and they cried 812 00:53:58,305 --> 00:53:59,841 and they had fun. 813 00:54:01,909 --> 00:54:04,545 Everyone, give it up for Miss Luna! 814 00:54:08,916 --> 00:54:10,852 I wanted to make sure that it was something 815 00:54:10,885 --> 00:54:12,854 that people walked away from uplifted. 816 00:54:12,887 --> 00:54:14,488 That's really important to me. 817 00:54:14,522 --> 00:54:16,057 I know that every single one of you 818 00:54:16,090 --> 00:54:17,892 has talents, you have passions, 819 00:54:17,925 --> 00:54:19,069 you have things that you're amazing at, 820 00:54:19,093 --> 00:54:21,394 things that you want to share. 821 00:54:21,428 --> 00:54:23,898 But I also know how terrifying 822 00:54:23,931 --> 00:54:25,566 and almost crippling it can be, 823 00:54:25,600 --> 00:54:28,401 the thought of taking something that you love 824 00:54:28,435 --> 00:54:30,671 and putting it out there for other people to judge. 825 00:54:30,705 --> 00:54:33,541 People that succeed fail a lot. 826 00:54:33,574 --> 00:54:35,076 They failed many, many times. 827 00:54:35,109 --> 00:54:37,678 But they know how to rise every time they fall, 828 00:54:37,712 --> 00:54:40,047 and so that's what this next song is about. 829 00:54:40,081 --> 00:54:42,083 It's about shutting out the voice 830 00:54:42,116 --> 00:54:45,787 and having the courage to step into the arena. 831 00:56:43,671 --> 00:56:46,574 Whoo! Yeah! 832 00:56:46,607 --> 00:56:48,576 It was this massive show. Dancers! 833 00:56:48,609 --> 00:56:50,211 - Oh, my God. - Magic! 834 00:56:50,244 --> 00:56:52,713 Magic was the best part! 835 00:56:56,751 --> 00:56:58,786 I'm so happy with how it was received. 836 00:56:58,819 --> 00:57:01,454 As much stress and as much fear went into the show, 837 00:57:01,488 --> 00:57:02,590 it was all so worth it. 838 00:57:02,623 --> 00:57:04,625 Oh, my God! 839 00:57:04,659 --> 00:57:06,160 Just a little bit nervous 840 00:57:06,193 --> 00:57:08,195 because some of my friends were here tonight. 841 00:57:08,229 --> 00:57:10,031 It's almost easier to talk about these things 842 00:57:10,064 --> 00:57:12,967 in front of strangers than it is to, like, 843 00:57:13,000 --> 00:57:14,635 really be raw and vulnerable 844 00:57:14,669 --> 00:57:16,537 in front of people that you care about. 845 00:57:16,570 --> 00:57:18,515 And by the way, the show was absolutely well done. 846 00:57:18,539 --> 00:57:19,573 Oh, thank you. 847 00:57:19,607 --> 00:57:21,642 Thank you for being here. 848 00:57:21,676 --> 00:57:23,476 It's so special to have you all. 849 00:57:43,164 --> 00:57:45,633 This tour has been an example, personally, 850 00:57:45,666 --> 00:57:48,970 of perseverance for me, because as I'm talking about 851 00:57:49,003 --> 00:57:51,505 these experiences of loss, 852 00:57:51,539 --> 00:57:54,175 no one really knows what I'm going through with my dad. 853 00:57:56,010 --> 00:57:57,878 It's stage-four cancer. 854 00:57:57,912 --> 00:57:59,180 It started out as something 855 00:57:59,213 --> 00:58:02,183 that I knew my dad would beat, 856 00:58:02,216 --> 00:58:03,827 but they're really having a hard time treating it. 857 00:58:03,851 --> 00:58:08,222 My mom was just calling to tell me, like, 858 00:58:08,255 --> 00:58:11,225 "We're going to hear news back next week, 859 00:58:11,258 --> 00:58:14,028 but just prepare yourself, 860 00:58:14,061 --> 00:58:16,163 because I don't want you 861 00:58:16,197 --> 00:58:19,200 to get really bad news out of nowhere." 862 00:58:19,233 --> 00:58:20,701 I was just starting to get up 863 00:58:20,735 --> 00:58:22,203 from the wave that just hit me, 864 00:58:22,236 --> 00:58:26,874 so it's really hard to experience this again. 865 00:58:26,907 --> 00:58:29,076 And it's really hard 866 00:58:29,110 --> 00:58:30,644 not to go back into a little shell. 867 00:58:30,678 --> 00:58:33,881 I wasn't expecting that today. 868 00:58:33,914 --> 00:58:35,216 Yeah. 869 00:58:35,249 --> 00:58:36,727 I don't think you could ever be prepared 870 00:58:36,751 --> 00:58:39,587 to be told to prepare yourself. 871 00:58:39,620 --> 00:58:40,888 No, not at all. 872 00:58:40,921 --> 00:58:42,299 Basically, we were told by the doctors 873 00:58:42,323 --> 00:58:44,759 to prepare for good-bye. 874 00:58:44,792 --> 00:58:47,595 I started flying home every day off. 875 00:58:47,628 --> 00:58:51,899 You know, from New York, to Arizona, back to D.C. 876 00:58:51,932 --> 00:58:55,302 I'm just trying to spend as much time as I can. 877 00:58:55,336 --> 00:58:56,837 He's fought such a hard fight, 878 00:58:56,871 --> 00:59:00,641 and in so many ways 879 00:59:00,674 --> 00:59:03,110 I am the woman I am today because of my dad. 880 00:59:03,144 --> 00:59:05,780 - What do you think? - I think it's awesome. 881 00:59:05,813 --> 00:59:10,751 I really attribute this sense of adventure to him. 882 00:59:12,820 --> 00:59:16,690 It's really hard when you see people start to lose hope. 883 00:59:18,893 --> 00:59:20,795 What time is meet and greet? 884 00:59:20,828 --> 00:59:22,830 6 to 7. 885 00:59:25,366 --> 00:59:29,136 Drew: With her father's diagnosis, 886 00:59:29,170 --> 00:59:32,973 obviously there are days where it's extremely difficult 887 00:59:33,007 --> 00:59:35,843 and we just all try and be there for her. 888 00:59:35,876 --> 00:59:38,646 It's been a really, really rough one. 889 00:59:38,679 --> 00:59:40,281 There's just stress there to begin with, 890 00:59:40,314 --> 00:59:43,651 let alone these two massive, major issues in her life. 891 00:59:47,021 --> 00:59:49,824 But she flips a switch, gets up, 892 00:59:49,857 --> 00:59:51,358 wipes the tears off, and just, like, 893 00:59:51,392 --> 00:59:55,129 "Okay, I've got to be Lindsey Stirling. 894 00:59:55,162 --> 00:59:57,264 I can't be... Lindsey Stirling." 895 01:00:03,070 --> 01:00:05,139 - Oh, I'm so ready. - Let's do it! 896 01:00:05,172 --> 01:00:07,074 - Hey, come on in. - Hi! 897 01:00:07,108 --> 01:00:08,409 - Oh, my gosh. - Hello! 898 01:00:08,442 --> 01:00:11,679 Ooh, you're so pretty. I love your hair. 899 01:00:11,712 --> 01:00:13,814 I try to be really optimistic with my fans. 900 01:00:13,848 --> 01:00:14,849 So cool. 901 01:00:14,882 --> 01:00:16,217 You want to be uplifting. 902 01:00:16,250 --> 01:00:18,652 Yeah! Where does one get a stormtrooper helmet? 903 01:00:18,686 --> 01:00:21,155 It's a constant battle to be that kind of person. 904 01:00:22,323 --> 01:00:23,958 Yeah, come over here. 905 01:00:23,991 --> 01:00:26,660 But it doesn't mean I don't have days 906 01:00:26,694 --> 01:00:28,863 when I don't win the fight. 907 01:00:28,896 --> 01:00:31,899 What to do with my life. 908 01:00:31,932 --> 01:00:33,968 And a few days later your album came out 909 01:00:34,001 --> 01:00:37,671 and that song "Don't Let This Feeling Fade" came up. 910 01:00:37,705 --> 01:00:41,809 God, like, I just knew right there that I had something to do. 911 01:00:41,842 --> 01:00:43,144 I'm so glad that you enjoyed it 912 01:00:43,177 --> 01:00:44,812 and that it meant something to you. 913 01:00:44,845 --> 01:00:45,989 - Thank you so much. - Thank you. 914 01:00:46,013 --> 01:00:48,015 Everybody has bad days, 915 01:00:48,048 --> 01:00:50,684 but when bad days are compounded by grief, 916 01:00:50,718 --> 01:00:52,987 it's really hard to feel like I can be everything 917 01:00:53,020 --> 01:00:54,989 I need and want to be for my fans 918 01:00:55,022 --> 01:00:58,225 when you hurt so much inside. 919 01:00:58,259 --> 01:01:00,728 You know, you really saved my life. 920 01:01:00,761 --> 01:01:02,463 I was going through a really dark time and, 921 01:01:02,496 --> 01:01:05,866 um, I was at the brink, 922 01:01:05,900 --> 01:01:07,368 and your music came on 923 01:01:07,401 --> 01:01:09,737 and it just reminded to hang on. 924 01:01:09,770 --> 01:01:11,181 And your music always pulls me through. 925 01:01:11,205 --> 01:01:13,040 Oh, girl. Thank you for sharing that. 926 01:01:13,073 --> 01:01:15,075 That's so beautiful. 927 01:01:31,492 --> 01:01:33,160 A lot of the songs on "Brave Enough" 928 01:01:33,194 --> 01:01:35,329 obviously were written, inspired by, 929 01:01:35,362 --> 01:01:37,097 you know, losing Gavi, 930 01:01:37,131 --> 01:01:39,099 and they kind of gain a whole new depth now 931 01:01:39,133 --> 01:01:40,502 thinking about the fact 932 01:01:40,535 --> 01:01:42,403 that I'm probably going to lose my dad. 933 01:01:54,348 --> 01:01:57,251 "Lost Girls" is about being lost emotionally. 934 01:01:57,284 --> 01:02:00,387 And fighting the urge to go back 935 01:02:00,421 --> 01:02:02,524 into your comfort zone. 936 01:02:02,557 --> 01:02:04,425 It's this really beautiful 937 01:02:04,458 --> 01:02:05,936 symbolic journey of this little ballerina 938 01:02:05,960 --> 01:02:07,461 discovering herself in the forest. 939 01:02:07,494 --> 01:02:10,497 And she almost goes back into her snow globe, 940 01:02:10,532 --> 01:02:12,866 but chooses to stay free. 941 01:03:27,074 --> 01:03:28,976 ♪ Lost girls 942 01:03:31,011 --> 01:03:34,982 ♪ Lost girls find a way 943 01:03:35,015 --> 01:03:37,017 ♪ Lost girls 944 01:04:14,421 --> 01:04:18,425 ♪ Lost girls find a way 945 01:04:49,089 --> 01:04:51,091 I can't believe we've now been on tour 946 01:04:51,125 --> 01:04:52,226 for three months. 947 01:04:52,259 --> 01:04:54,361 Tonight is our final show, 948 01:04:54,395 --> 01:04:57,197 in Phoenix, my hometown. 949 01:04:58,499 --> 01:05:00,300 My dad will be at the show. 950 01:05:00,334 --> 01:05:02,604 He is so excited to see it. 951 01:05:02,637 --> 01:05:06,306 My dad has just always been so proud. 952 01:05:06,340 --> 01:05:09,644 I think it's going to be really, really special. 953 01:05:09,677 --> 01:05:12,279 I can't believe it's the last day. 954 01:05:12,312 --> 01:05:13,715 It's insane to me. 955 01:05:13,748 --> 01:05:15,215 WoYeah, I hear you. 956 01:05:15,249 --> 01:05:18,285 This has been an extremely exhausting tour, 957 01:05:18,318 --> 01:05:20,120 not only just physically, 958 01:05:20,154 --> 01:05:22,122 but also have the built-up emotions 959 01:05:22,156 --> 01:05:23,433 about what my family's going through 960 01:05:23,457 --> 01:05:25,125 and worrying about my dad. 961 01:05:25,159 --> 01:05:28,495 - Want me to push him? - Sure, that would be great. 962 01:05:30,665 --> 01:05:32,700 Hi! 963 01:05:32,734 --> 01:05:35,637 - Here's the man himself. - Look who's here. 964 01:05:35,670 --> 01:05:37,971 My name is Stephen J. Stirling 965 01:05:38,005 --> 01:05:40,174 and I am Lindsey's father. 966 01:05:40,207 --> 01:05:44,344 I've come to see the last performance in Phoenix. 967 01:05:44,378 --> 01:05:46,581 What do you warm up to first? 968 01:05:48,182 --> 01:05:50,317 I usually do scales and then I play... 969 01:05:50,350 --> 01:05:52,620 I like to play the song I open with 970 01:05:52,654 --> 01:05:55,557 so I can imagine that I'm doing it. 971 01:05:58,292 --> 01:05:59,661 I'm really excited. 972 01:05:59,694 --> 01:06:01,037 I'm going home with my parents tonight. 973 01:06:01,061 --> 01:06:02,597 I'm loading up in the car 974 01:06:02,630 --> 01:06:04,264 and we're going to go home 975 01:06:04,298 --> 01:06:06,099 and just spend time with my family. 976 01:06:06,133 --> 01:06:08,368 - How you feeling today? - A lot better. 977 01:06:08,402 --> 01:06:10,204 - You look better. - You do. 978 01:06:10,237 --> 01:06:13,373 You look really just awake today and you look great. 979 01:06:13,407 --> 01:06:16,210 There's color in your skin and light in those eyes. 980 01:06:16,243 --> 01:06:18,556 I was dead yesterday because they worked me out too much yesterday. 981 01:06:18,580 --> 01:06:21,048 I know. You know, that was pretty, 982 01:06:21,081 --> 01:06:22,225 pretty intense what you go through. 983 01:06:22,249 --> 01:06:25,219 And today, uh-oh. 984 01:06:25,252 --> 01:06:28,222 So today you didn't have to go to the doctor? 985 01:06:28,255 --> 01:06:31,058 - Nice! Day off. - Are you done? 986 01:06:31,091 --> 01:06:32,560 It's delightful for me 987 01:06:32,594 --> 01:06:34,361 to come to these venues, these experiences. 988 01:06:34,394 --> 01:06:36,163 First concert I went to, it blew me away. 989 01:06:36,196 --> 01:06:38,533 Little girls there that came to see Lindsey. 990 01:06:38,566 --> 01:06:40,367 "Will you sign my violin?" 991 01:06:40,400 --> 01:06:43,370 And then I was standing in front of a guy. 992 01:06:43,403 --> 01:06:46,541 He was a great big burly biker, you know, 993 01:06:46,574 --> 01:06:48,375 with braids down the back of his... 994 01:06:48,408 --> 01:06:51,078 And he's just... Just having a great time. 995 01:06:55,415 --> 01:06:57,785 I've taken a lot of inspiration from just watching Lindsey 996 01:06:57,819 --> 01:06:59,453 and seeing how she's coped 997 01:06:59,486 --> 01:07:02,322 and handled her father's cancer. 998 01:07:02,356 --> 01:07:06,594 In many ways, these trials have brought us together more. 999 01:07:06,628 --> 01:07:10,264 There's always a silver lining. 1000 01:07:10,297 --> 01:07:12,299 We stick together. 1001 01:07:12,332 --> 01:07:13,811 You need to stop worrying about everybody else... 1002 01:07:13,835 --> 01:07:16,504 Well, I will. 1003 01:07:16,538 --> 01:07:18,438 Well, of course I'm proud of her. 1004 01:07:18,472 --> 01:07:22,109 I'm proud of her for the way she has used her talents 1005 01:07:22,142 --> 01:07:24,111 to share with the world the joy 1006 01:07:24,144 --> 01:07:26,280 and the brightness that is her life 1007 01:07:26,313 --> 01:07:28,115 and her personality. 1008 01:07:28,148 --> 01:07:30,284 What Lindsey does is also quite fearless. 1009 01:07:30,317 --> 01:07:32,286 With Lindsey, it's more than just the performance 1010 01:07:32,319 --> 01:07:34,454 or more than just becoming a rock star. 1011 01:07:34,488 --> 01:07:36,456 Lindsey has a statement to make. 1012 01:07:36,490 --> 01:07:39,293 She wants someone to walk away having learned something. 1013 01:07:39,326 --> 01:07:41,128 I don't think there are words to describe 1014 01:07:41,161 --> 01:07:43,798 what a father can feel, that I feel, 1015 01:07:43,831 --> 01:07:46,868 that Lindsey's accomplished. 1016 01:07:46,901 --> 01:07:49,804 Final ten-minute call for show. 1017 01:07:49,837 --> 01:07:52,139 - Last one! - Last pray, last pray. 1018 01:07:52,172 --> 01:07:54,107 Father, we're so grateful 1019 01:07:54,141 --> 01:07:55,810 that we can all be here together... 1020 01:07:55,843 --> 01:07:57,377 There was a lot all happening at once 1021 01:07:57,411 --> 01:07:58,680 as I was preparing this album 1022 01:07:58,713 --> 01:08:00,180 and preparing this tour, 1023 01:08:00,213 --> 01:08:02,684 and I was turning 30, 1024 01:08:02,717 --> 01:08:05,753 I had just lost my best friend. 1025 01:08:05,787 --> 01:08:08,188 I feel like I've been really brave. 1026 01:08:08,221 --> 01:08:10,357 And it's not because I was born that way, 1027 01:08:10,390 --> 01:08:11,869 and it's not because it's natural to me, 1028 01:08:11,893 --> 01:08:13,795 because it's not. 1029 01:08:13,828 --> 01:08:17,397 But it's because Gavi and my dad made me realize 1030 01:08:17,430 --> 01:08:19,198 that every time we go through a big trial, 1031 01:08:19,232 --> 01:08:20,602 we get a little braver. 1032 01:08:20,635 --> 01:08:24,136 - Jesus Christ, amen. - All: Amen. 1033 01:08:32,245 --> 01:08:34,881 ♪ Don't let this feeling fade ♪ 1034 01:08:34,916 --> 01:08:39,854 ♪ Launch into the sky like a private plane ♪ 1035 01:08:39,886 --> 01:08:42,857 ♪ Hang on, we'll ride this wave ♪ 1036 01:08:42,890 --> 01:08:45,859 ♪ Watch the tide come in a little ♪ 1037 01:08:45,893 --> 01:08:48,563 ♪ Just a little more each day ♪ 1038 01:08:50,229 --> 01:08:52,399 ♪ Don't let this feeling fade ♪ 1039 01:08:54,535 --> 01:08:55,903 ♪ Don't let this feeling 1040 01:08:55,937 --> 01:08:59,272 ♪ Hang on, we'll ride this wave ♪ 1041 01:08:59,305 --> 01:09:01,943 ♪ Launch into the sky like a private ♪ 1042 01:09:01,975 --> 01:09:05,178 ♪ Fly like a private plane 1043 01:09:19,993 --> 01:09:21,696 ♪ Don't let this feeling 1044 01:09:23,798 --> 01:09:26,868 ♪ Don't let this feeling fade ♪ 1045 01:09:26,901 --> 01:09:28,368 ♪ Turn it up, let me hear you live ♪ 1046 01:09:28,402 --> 01:09:30,270 ♪ Don't let this feeling 1047 01:09:32,238 --> 01:09:34,942 ♪ Don't let this feeling fade ♪ 1048 01:09:34,975 --> 01:09:36,343 ♪ One life, one love 1049 01:09:44,819 --> 01:09:47,522 Whoo! Thank you so much, Phoenix! 1050 01:09:47,555 --> 01:09:49,791 I want to bring out my whole crew! 1051 01:09:54,028 --> 01:09:55,830 ♪ Don't let this feeling 1052 01:09:57,565 --> 01:10:00,501 ♪ Don't let this feeling fade ♪ 1053 01:10:00,535 --> 01:10:02,302 ♪ Turn it up, let me hear you live ♪ 1054 01:10:02,335 --> 01:10:06,473 ♪ Don't let this feeling 1055 01:10:06,507 --> 01:10:09,276 ♪ Don't let this feeling fade ♪ 1056 01:10:09,309 --> 01:10:10,845 ♪ One life, one love 1057 01:10:35,503 --> 01:10:37,638 I didn't have time with Gavi 1058 01:10:37,672 --> 01:10:40,007 to say all the things I wanted to say. 1059 01:10:40,041 --> 01:10:42,476 I didn't get to say good-bye 1060 01:10:42,510 --> 01:10:44,645 or tell him everything I wanted him to know, 1061 01:10:44,679 --> 01:10:46,446 or how much I cared. 1062 01:10:46,480 --> 01:10:47,949 I think the process of losing Gavi 1063 01:10:47,982 --> 01:10:50,450 helped me realize that I wanted things 1064 01:10:50,484 --> 01:10:51,719 to be different with my dad. 1065 01:10:51,753 --> 01:10:54,856 I knew that this was coming, 1066 01:10:54,889 --> 01:10:56,858 and I made changes in my life 1067 01:10:56,891 --> 01:11:00,494 so that I would have as little regrets as possible. 1068 01:11:00,528 --> 01:11:05,398 What a blessing it was to have some time with my dad. 1069 01:11:07,568 --> 01:11:10,370 You're the best puppy in the world. 1070 01:11:10,403 --> 01:11:11,873 The best Luners. 1071 01:11:19,113 --> 01:11:20,882 I'm finally going back on tour. 1072 01:11:20,915 --> 01:11:24,051 It's just hitting me right now. 1073 01:11:24,085 --> 01:11:26,554 I'm about to head out on the European run 1074 01:11:26,587 --> 01:11:28,022 of the "Brave Enough" tour. 1075 01:11:28,055 --> 01:11:30,290 I'm so excited. 1076 01:11:49,442 --> 01:11:52,445 - Hi, Lindsey. - Hey, Mommy! 1077 01:11:52,479 --> 01:11:54,682 I'm on my way to the airport right now, 1078 01:11:54,715 --> 01:11:56,784 but I just wanted to call you to say, 1079 01:11:56,818 --> 01:11:58,619 you know, say good-bye before I leave. 1080 01:11:58,653 --> 01:12:00,555 Did you take your supplements with you? 1081 01:12:02,489 --> 01:12:05,960 I... brought some of them. 1082 01:12:05,993 --> 01:12:07,962 Okay. All right, I love you, sweetheart. 1083 01:12:07,995 --> 01:12:09,831 - Good-bye. - Love you, too. Bye. 1084 01:12:11,966 --> 01:12:14,502 She's such a mom. 1085 01:12:16,469 --> 01:12:19,640 Life is not one journey to a destination. 1086 01:12:21,642 --> 01:12:23,544 It's a constant fight, it's a constant battle 1087 01:12:23,578 --> 01:12:26,113 to stay optimistic, 1088 01:12:26,147 --> 01:12:29,650 even if you've been hurt multiple times. 1089 01:12:33,154 --> 01:12:34,454 The scars that you carry, 1090 01:12:34,487 --> 01:12:36,456 they can either make you hard 1091 01:12:36,489 --> 01:12:38,458 or they can make you strong, 1092 01:12:38,491 --> 01:12:42,129 make you empathetic and not bitter. 1093 01:12:42,163 --> 01:12:44,732 And we all have that choice. It's a climb. 1094 01:12:44,765 --> 01:12:47,501 You can rise past your trials. You can be brave. 1095 01:12:49,036 --> 01:12:51,438 As I continue to perform, 1096 01:12:51,471 --> 01:12:53,107 I know my dad will be there with me, 1097 01:12:53,140 --> 01:12:56,844 because he's always been my biggest fan.